No words can describle how i feel

Well i'm back again. Seems like if i got into trouble this is the place where i can voice out, shout out and cry out aloud. Well din know what to say just lost of words. There are happiness and unhappiness that i wanna say out but unhappiness is so much so it can take me aways.

Remember i said things for me and eugene seems moving ahead but the truth is we are not. In afct she now has a partner of his life. Well i just dun understand if he has no feeling for me why wanna move in to some actions where not couples do. I just hates myself for being so easy falling for him. And in fact i was super duper upset the day before. But so much so i know loves can't be force so let things go and i'm hereby wishin them and hoping the will move further ahead. As for me i thinki haev to really learn my lesson in love and be smarter in anyway to get myself in hurt.

Erm... happy part is i finally meet up with Adrian despite of chatting in msn for a long period. Heheh gosh he dun even look like his age and he is cute and funny. Was comfortable with him when we will out on the first date to  watch BLOOD ( The last Vampine). Things move pretty well and i knew he feel bad as the first date and first movie is a horror one. BUt i'm fine some part of the story are scarey but i'm okay with it. Feel bad as i think it was rushing for me that day as he has a soccer match in the afternoon and think he did not have his lunch and stright rush over and in fact after the show we went for dinner he din eat much also.. And he was not feeling well then. Could be he ran over  and he is sweating then straight enter air con room and that caught him to be sick. Feel bad as he is also uptight by work. 

Er okay now also a resting period for me as i'm not working and still looking out for jobs hope to get one soon. SHould be bad soon.

super duper sad......

Was super duper sad as mention under mky title today. As i received new at 5pm this evening saying that due to some critical issues i need to be transfer to another f***ing outlet. The reason was not there to support or to convince me well enough. From a kids shop going to an adult shop is tough and working under such people will soon kill me. Dun understand what are they thinking, currently shop is not at good conditions as times are bad and people are not buying. Looking at the news which breaks out from the government will scared Singaporean to stop buying.

Sales was not there since Jan'09 and having a hard times to went thru all the hard work to bulid my team and when there are bond, i was being transfer. One reason was as i was fewest to transfer among all of them but why didn't u people do in early and waited till now. And the parties taking over has tender her letter. I really dun see any point but one things these people has showed is they think with their ass. Dun wanna when i get use to ot then i was being transfer out again. Now ahving study i so difficult as to clock all my 44 hours in a week and on every mon and thur i will have to clock a full shift which cover 11 hrs and how about the rest. Looking at the shop situation there should be two staffs doing opening and closing. And the feaking pt can only work on sat and sun... WTH

It has been a long time since i broke down that badly till my parents will all shocked as still remember my last cried was when he left me and the hurt he has caused. This time it was double the pain i have before. I'm really currently happy with who i'm working with. it took me month to train the team up so must have it got to be like this. i dun sell my soul or body to the company. If the staff cannot amke it then dun just throw someone there.

Looking forward to a better day... to be continued

SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE

Jamal Malik, an 18 year-old orphan from the slums of Mumbai is about to experience the biggest day of his life. With the whole nation watching, he is just one question away from winning a staggering 20 million rupees on India's "Who Wants to be a Millionaire?". But when the show breaks for the night, police arrest him on suspicion of cheating. Jamal proves his innocence by telling the story of his life in the slum where he and his brother grew up. Each chapter of his story reveals the key to the answer to each one of the game show's questions. When the new day dawns and Jamal returns to answer the final question, the Inspector and sixty million viewers are about to find out...

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I"M BACK....

Wow have not been writing for the past few months! Sorry that i haev neglected u in any way. Hehe well should be back to updates more and more, the merrier the better.



Well how should i Start after so long missing in action. Too much things to let out!



Er things is getting more and more closely for me and Eugene. Staying over at his place increased too. And we did somethings more than a couples will do that is KISS. Oh my god, what has gone wrong with me? Should let anyone know about this not even those close sis of mine. Hehe of course will be happy as u have develope further with someone that u start to fall for. But do not know why he did that and what he is thinking? Was totally upset when i heard that he was out with Joycelyn but i should have bother as we are not the bf/gf status so i shouldn't be disturb by it. Whatever it is gonna be i know i should have too much hopes in the frenship. Let things take it nature course ba.



Getting myself involoved in a business that is so realted to MLM( LFI) doing wellness santuacy and it will helps ppls during the recession, well how true i do not know but i did learn and see things different from there but at the same time i feel it will break frenship too. As it has happen and after the whole incident i couldn't bring my that close back with the frens any longer. At first when i was been bought in i see a lot of things and heard and did learn. Inventually it did change my mind by seeing things differently when there is problem.

Terms has reopen, and this few months it gonna be extreme busy as i'm finishing my study in like two months time. Hehe was so looking forward for it....

Well should oen down here, and get back soon. OPs by the way i doing my slimming program thingy. it so terrible and i miss all the foods and my fav chocloate.. Been four days since i did not have any solid foods in my stomach. ohs two week faster go or i should said qucickly finish the program ba.... TERRIBLE SAD AS I MISS TOM YAM SOUP......

Missing him......

Er well heaven been updating it for a nowadays, as have been sticking with him alomst evreydays and i'm really so use to his ways. Like at time will hoping to received his message and wishes to hear from him. Haha dun really know is the stauts like but i feel odd at times. Wishing to move further with him but look like cannot also. He has rather high expecation for his partner. Well... er i admit that i'm not that skinny or pretty so i have to tell myself that let things be nature... Dun really know what our status are like have being staying over at his place very frequent and the ways we behave is so different. Just like on Tuesday need to stay over at his palace as wednesday was my off day and have to send his car to the workshop for repairs. So was rushing over to his place afetr work and at that time was so hungry.. Think he start to get use to my habbit as when we are smsing each others i told him that i'm hungry but dun know what to eat? And he reply just eat the first thing that come to mind and i reply nuthing in mind and he said noodles. hahah he really guess it rite in the end.. so i asked how he knew and he said he has get use to my habits. Haha when i reach his place on tuesday nitez while waiting for him he asked me am i hungry and i reply yes. And he actually pack me on my head.. hahha things just works out rite.....

Well all this should be kept to myself... hahah haeding out hoping to moves on further with him ba..... Missing him.....

SHAG DAY.......

Well today was a super shag day at work too much things things to do and was super shocked to see my shop are running low for stocks and it is so close to a weekend. Everywhere in the shop is messy and dun even knows wannna start to pack from where. Haha finally school has reopen but still crowded at the shopping mall.

Was busy with work till i did not even have time to reply message, hahah went back home straight after work and actaully met up with arron after so long conversation. haha he asked me to help him in his partnership business and i'm still thinking well haha it is office hours. should really think about it....

Off to bed le....... nitez

New toys for a new year.....

Haha.... New year le 2009, er let see what have i done on the new year.. Was at Eugene's place on the eve as we acutally met up for dinner at dun know what ABC market. After eating he thou of going for Fish spa as he saw a ad on the cab while stopping at a junction. Haha suspose to accompany him to his uncle's place but was working so too bad.. ahhah went his place to watch movies and stay till late then was lazy to go back also so slept over at his place again, ops..... haha upon twelve sharp he told me" hahah new year le and i'm the first person he saw" hahah lame rite.....?

Woke up at about 830am and he started to tickle me again, ahah that my weak point so i got no chance to react as i'm just scare of tickle.. hahah slack until like about 11 plus then he asked so what the plan and i said can i drove back to change and prepare myself then head back to fetch him. And i left his place and head back for a wash up.... Almost met accident when on my way back super shag.... leg was shaking all the way but lucky is i'm reaching home le. hahah after bath and wash up quickly left home and went to his place again. Haha deceide to use fort road as there isn't much traffic and i can speed up to 110... haha just daring la...

Went to marina square for lunch, got craving for thai express so eat pinapple rice... and the crispy pancakes. hahah was super full. The kuku forget his credit card holder again, ahaha think gonna take a string to tied on his neck better... ahaha after eating went back to his car to get the holder and deceide to go stauhub as i need to use my upgarde voucher before its expired. haha was asking him should i take HTC touch HD or PRO... finally deceide to get HD as i worried i might have problem with the PRO slide keyboard but actually i also having problem with HD..

Haha after getting the phone we went for the fish spa at Kenko.. ahhah new things and its really ticklish la but just need to bear with it but overall the feeling is good... LOves it although it tickle... hahah after that went to his place to sort things out for my phone.. ahaha he did all the setup and transfer of data.. haha he a "pro master" to my phone and if i dun know anyway i can just get him to settle for me... Great man... hahaha was super shag so went bed early.. ahha that my bad habbit if i slept over at fren's place for sure is i wun slept enough as not use to it hahah


PS : Thank Eugene for helping me on the phone and loves his accompany as sure will learn or try somethings new...

THE BIG "I"

It reli suck to work on boxing day !!!After so many days of sale going on, ppl still asking stupid question. Hei, it storewide up to 40% and u buy 3 pcs got add 10% off but if with Dbs card, u get add 15% instead of 10%. Wat so hard to understand ??IDIOT TOT IS : STOREWIDE 40%, BUY 3 ADD 10% AND WITH DBS CARD ADD 15%.DUH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!If like that, i give u storewide 70% better lah .....Last mth was Uob promotion .. 20% off on regular prices items. That when the sale not started yet.IDIOT ASK : HOW CUM IS DBS ?? NOT UOB ???

I m just wondering ...........It reli fucking over and i have move on .......Y ppl still want to dig it out and talk abt it ???I can dun give a damn but why ???Wat fucking karma would u get if u still digging it out ???I just dun understand ???Y behave like a jerk ???E GRAVE !!!! DAMN STUPID .............

Really disappointed with YOU...

Well been away for couples of days due to the busy schedules, like christmas gathering with Charles,Eugene,Shuping, Acemark and joycelyn...

on 25th dec, meet Eugene at the car workshop has he has to send his car for the new body kit fixing. And the jobs was not being done up on time as the new front car plates is not up and when fixing the side, the man actually crack the driver side new kit. Gonna send the car back on tuesday afternoon to get it done. After finishing, he actaully fetch me back home to get all the presents for them and head back to his place to rest and waiting for time to past then meet up with them at east coast breeze bar. Super sad.. as JOYCELYN actually open Vodka, which is like i have been drinking for the past few days. Was drinking, playing dices and singing.. haha super shag aas if you do not sing well it actually piss ppl ear. HAHA just nice there a table just sucks la but they still sing like nobody business.. During this gathering it makes me realise that our gap is different and thinking too. Maybe i might look young but i admit my thinking will be more mature then u much much. i know what i am doing, veen if i will get hurt i will not come to YOU anymore. After ur taiwan trip back, it makes me realise that everything u wanna know or say is a hurtful things to me. Can see that the both of u having feeling still but i just dun bother. Even when u are away, JXXXX was satying at CXXXXXX's place u are also not aware.

i have grown up and know what is right what is wrong. And i dun think i need you to tell me what to do. was rather angry as wasted sometime doing stupid things. by right there should be BBQ session for Charles birthday ended up just waste time. Er seriously i also dun know why i'm so stupid. Should have just went back home after eating dinner with Eugene..

hahah tired going to sleep le.....

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2008........

MERRY X'MAS......... Haha feeling for this year christmas is a bit werid. But coming to think about it i should be feeling it different lor.

Every year Christmas He(ex bf) will never have the time to meet up with me to go for a sweet only 2 of us dinner or etc. He will just stay at home either he has his mahjong program or not is other le like working or etc. Actually i shouldn't be saying much as along he really hardly had time for me.. I think only Valentine day but is not whole day lor just a half day evening...

This year christmas is really different as i have frens arund till i do not have time to spend with. Feel bad is only that i promise shupign and Ace to Lina's place but ended up i did not go... think they are really mad over it but i dun really bother , as i think my age gap or thinking is rather different from Shuping. For Ace i believe he will understand. Did sms them to apologise but yet to heard from them yet.... Haha this year thou can spend Chirstmas with them but ended up everyone is busy... haha so just work ahead and enjoy later....

After work actually met up with Eugene after his fren's wedding, thou it was a supper ended up is a drinking(should start to try more other taste) haha.... As he say he was not hungry so we went our old place for a drink again.. hahah i just like the absulot vodka..... super nice but just that it not really strong but i tried the 'long island tea' shitty it was rather strong lor.... think three glass of that will knock me out le ba.... Er this round drinking with him is jsut so carefree.. but a bit shy as when we talk there will like eye contact and i feel werid..hhaha lucky i'm able to control my expression and thinking... shouldn't let them over write me....

Well it is late should be putting myself to rest le as still gonna work tml.... Hey ppl have a wonderful christmas nitez and merry x'mas ya... yeah yeah...... looking forward for a new change in year 2009......

Does friendship really count......

I think it about time to think about our friendship le... Know you since seven year back but just realise that we are actaully far apart lor. Well i also dun wish to said further.. NO COMMENTS ABOUT YOU ALL LE.... Jsut a SAD words

Going to sleep as not feeling well and tired too....

HATE IT

im disappointed. very disappointed.disappointed that u cldnt see past all ur rage.disappointed that somehow all this time the friendship that has been built up, the help that has been rendered, the laughter, the heart-felt talks, has all somewhat seemed to vanish. just like that.all this time when all this had happened, i never once thought anything negative of u. even thought fondly of you. how to rescue the situation. how to make it better. how to find the perfect compromise. how to make everyone better. different people had different priorities in life and different working styles. who is at fault here? the answer i have is: both are wrong.think bout it. in your position. What is the ideal solution? Or rather what is your ideal solution?all i want here is for both people to be happy. for both to do what they want to do. if selfish is what you think it is. it shall be.just when i was cheerfully happily thinking of what to do tmr there and dishing friendly advice to ppl. u killed it.of course after this im prepared for the backlash. guess thats what life is all about.

What a day of shit carrier...

What a bad day i have. Even thou it was a sunday and working morning but everythings just dun went smooth. First got scolded and nagging from her regarding staff request on christmas.. At time i just dun understand why all the boss will like to use the mouth to say and scold ppl and when things happen on them they tend to pretend nuthing happen. Bosses should really do some research on their self before any other action.

Was a shag day also, as saturday work till 11 plus due to the christmas extention hours. haha super duper tired. After work, actually met up with dave to get christmas presents. HAhah am happy with what i getting for Joycelyn, Charles, MArk and Eugene. but i dun know what should i get for shuping la.. but will contiune to serach... Met shuping at enous mrt after departing with dave as meeting them for supper. haiz after met we will trying to get cab but just couldn't get so we decided to cross the road and after crossing there are load of cab so i was being call the shit carrier.. Finally after walking down we manges to get a cab and reach parkway to meet Mark.. While he was doing closing for his shop and waiting for joycelyn an charles. So i decide to call joycelyn, ended up is charles who pick up the phone and sound fierce and he actually pass the phone to joycelyn after that. So we waited for them. Actually dun really wanna go, regret but no choice le. First was having a bad pain in my stomach, second things just dun work out rite. After waiting for awhile MArk decided to go up to the taxi stand and wait as he can smoke so we went up and the wind was so cold.. MAybe i'm falling sick that why. Er waited for them to arrived then pass the beer to lina and roger. Haha after that we webt ahead for supper, but while on the way to meet Eugene, Joycelyn said she need to go pass present to her big aunt first so i dun know what time she fix with Eugene. Ended up i got his temper while on the way there, he call and ask where are we and i said on the expressway and he raise his voice like "huh, so slow now what time le." and the conversation went quiet so i asked u reach and he said whta u think. Wah i'm not the one who is late la. Maybe i'm a shit carrier ba, just sad... After eating we actually went back home to rest...

NO COMMENT ON THE SUPPER, PRESENT RECEIVED AND ETC.... JUST A SAD,SUCKS DAY FOR ME,

tired....

Just another shag day,.... could sleep well since last nitez and was having a bad tummy aches this morning while it is about time to meet Eugene for bladding session... haha yes another day seeing him... this round we actually blade till sailing club then turn back.. haha after that we went back to prepare as we meeting at 1230 again to go see his running short and tee... Wow it cost him $205...

After getting taht we went for lunch and he send me to work... haha super duper tired now should get some rest early ba...

SHAG days.........

Full shift today... And i actually meet up with Eugene after work. He came over in the afternoon and he actually went back home ariund seven then he came and pick me up again at 10 plus to go for a drink....

Hahha went to some where behind Siglap where there is a bar and we actually settle down there to drink. Super duper angry was when we decided to order the lady told us the kitchen is close... shit thou of ordering some finger food... ah haha try a new drink today that called lycheee martini... super strogn , ot could eb i drink it too fast le... ahahh drinking we actually went back home to rest le.. Heard another side of his story about his back pack, should look forward to go back pack with him... sound so interesting lor...

Hahah head giddy le gonna go back to my dreamland nitez...

BOMB DROPPING......

12122008

A staff of mine actually give birth to a twin.Well you are not seeing double, it is really a twins. Can't wait to see them on their full month.So cute

Love Is a Choice

Love is a choice and a commitment. You choose to love or you choose not to love.
Today we’ve bought into this myth that love is uncontrollable, that it’s something that just happens to us; it’s not something we control. In fact, even the language we use implies the uncontrollability of love. We say, “I fell in love,” as if love is some kind of a ditch. It’s like I’m walking along one day and bam! – I fell in love. I couldn’t help myself.But I have to tell you the truth – that’s not love. Love doesn’t just happen to you. Love is a choice and it represents a commitment.There’s no doubt about it, attraction is uncontrollable and arousal is uncontrollable. But attraction and arousal are not love. They can lead to love, but they are not love. Love is a choice.You must choose to love God; he won’t force you to love him (Deuteronomy 30:20). You can thumb your nose at God and go a totally different way. You can destroy your life if you choose to do that. God still won’t force you to love him. Because he knows love can’t be forced.And this same principle is true about your relationships: you can choose to love others, but God won’t force you to love anyone.

Snack-a-mania

It's exactly 3 weeks to 2009, and I m at home blogging when I should be at work.

Well, I had cramps to start the day off. Was thinking of taking MC but workload do not allowed me. Sobzzz..... No... I m not depressed, nor m i pregnant.We just happened to be in a pig-out mood

1. snacks from 24 hr mart at macpherson - these r intentionally seek out to satisfy the head buried in a book2. japanese snacks from parkway - cold storage was having a road show with damn atas POCKY! haha... their 'normal' pocky is made from dark choc, and the strawberry one... it was heavenly! Thick and creamy... yum yum yum.

Packaging is so nice! The japs really know their design stuff.

我很想爱他....

天空 下起雨了 他撑的伞 在你的身边陪著
可是 我不快乐 因为看见 他脸上的笑 是很勉强的
我很想爱他 但是眼睛在说谎 隐瞒比较容易吧 免得感情变的复杂
我很想爱他 但是理智在吵架 退出可以解围吗 注能给我一个好回答
爱情 是模糊的 可怜的是 没有勇气选择 如果 再舍不得 这样下去
我们每个人都是受害者 当爱情陷在危险边缘
是否都会伤痕累累 是否都会苦不堪言

Fall deeply for this songs by twins. As it is describle my current feeling toward you... Let things only be nature ba.. No forcing....

Packing his room (part 1)

Haha..... was sort of tired la, as went to shuping's place for mahjong then went back like around 3am plus. Hehe that normal as we usually end around this time. Was super clever as this round i actually did not share with ppl is only until the last fews game then i ask shuping to take over as needed go toilet... After packing poor mark and me as Charles and Eugene was planning who to send to send who back... haha ended up is still Eugene sending me back..!

Slept at around 4am. and i actually wake up at 0830am. Gosh another day is with 4.5 hours sleep again... Meeting Eugene at his place around 130pm but damn sad as it was raining as just dun like to carry the stupid umbrella here and there.. Left the house at only like almost 1pm. Shit was scare that i was late so run to take a train to tanah merah but stupid me as i dun know what bus will go to his place so sms him for info and still ended up he pick me up at tanah merah... Slack at his place till his frens, Joann was here then went to Siglap to eat and they will discuss about his plan.... HAHa i also dun know just eat and sit there listen to there crapppp.... After that then we went to ikea as he thou of getting a carpet for his room but ended up getting rack as to help him with his packing in his room..

Didn't know i was so amazing as i manages to measure the rack and his cupboard..(only using thinking).. well was a big mission lor, but haha ended up still get it completed.. haha his clothes was previously like a mountain but now under my control as all are in the rack neatly fold..( so Mr Sin) better maintain it lor). haha was suspose to meet Charles for steanboat ended up it was being cancel as he need to meet his primary school fren.. well is okay lor as ended up we finish our part 1 cleaning at around 10pm.. then went out to eat with Mark,Shuping and Charles.. Haha was talkin about those dinosaurs in changi.... hahah then after that everyone was tired so we actually went back...

Was super shag.. half way sms-ing with Eugene i actually can fall asleep... hahah gonna go prepare for work le. should be back soon..... sorry pal part 1 no photo, dunworry part two should have.... heheh....