Friday, June 27, 2008

VALUABLE WORDS.......

DON"T HURT ANYONE
It's only takes a few seconds to hurt people
you love, and it takes years to heal.

LIVE TODAY
There are two eternities that can really break
you down. Yesterday and tomorrow one is gone
and other doesn't exist..... So live today!

MARRIAGE
Do not marry a person that you know that you
can live with: only marry someone that you
cannot live without.

MONEY
$$$$$ can buy everything but not happiness!

TRUST
It takes years to build trust and a few seconds
to destry it.

VALUE
What is most valuable is not what you have in
my life but who you have in your life.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

不公平.... Nice songs

走了那么远 发现你不在身边
独自走过了什么 自己都不了解
未来的蓝图应该有你 不该只剩叹息
只是偶尔泪流不停 坚强的理由
只是自己骗自己 你眼中的恐惧
说什么都多余 付出的一切值不值得
永远不会有答案 只有天知道我有多么爱你
一颗心属于一个人 在爱情里什么算公平
爱的深也伤的深 是不是罪灭了自己
一颗心属于我自己 爱情里找不到公平
而当你最后选择了逃避
我学会不公平

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

VERY TIRED but yet DRAMA...............

Well i'm back blogging again. Let me think what have i did over my last week and current week. Er met joy, charles, shuping and mark had a great times as we chat a lots under the moon light. haha then haed back home. Er rather busy with work and social and relationship life. Up to date i have not fully settle me relationship problem. Bad things happen on tuesday.
MORE DRAMA THAN TV !!!!
Halfway thru the lesson today, H got a call from home to inform that her mum fainted . She rush home after that. While i m in the office for meeting later, My Om came and asked me wat happened to H ?? I mainly told her wat i heard.THE TRUTH IS .............................The mum con her to get home. WHY ??? Cause her idiot Bf call her house and tell her mum wat going home between them .. How he abuse her at times and threathen to kill her. So it very drama mama think that the mum decided that she quit her job and send her oversea tomolo ...OK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I m not prepare for this kind of drama leh ... I thought i saw on tv onli leh !!! I m so confused now.. I only managed to talk to her sister over the phone and i dun know wat the second part of it. I told them to report to police and hopefully, the case would end there and then. This guy must be reli an idiot asshole leh !!! STUPID !!!!

Met shuping for mahjong session on tuesday night can not imagine as we actually start playing at 12am until 8am the next mornign.. Well not very good as i have lost $30 bucks but nvm no lost then win will not came hahah.... After playing well head back home to sleep as really very tired.. Wake up at about 530pm then ate my dinner and start to slack until now. Hai tml still need to go for class again and i'm falling sick boring..........should rest early again..

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

THAT IT

I m freaking mad !!! I dun understand why everytime there things or rumour happened at work , I m like the fucking one that caused or spread around . It even more mad that ppl around u are just getting involved when i myself dun know know wat the hell is going on. I m mad that some coward just run away when they are the one that caused the trouble . It even more mad that they dun even dare to confont u but go around and telling people abt it. It even freaking mad that this 'it' is supposed to be your in charge.I just find it very amusing in a way. They wanted us to be open minded and learn to do things in an "adult" way. Here, we are doing things in a adult way but people just behave like a kiddy. Wat angry is that they dun even practise wat they told u to do !!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Still missing him

Well have been on cold war for alomst a week today, feeling down at times as on one part i really miss him and on the other part i worry how he is doing. At times my tears still just drop down but lucky this fews days there a true fren just by my side cheering me up and lend me the listening ear. Have share a lots with that fren and do enjoy it. Hope things just go smooth for u and quite tired as today class got a test and was hertic at work so heading to sleep le.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

DEEPLY HURT BY LOVE

Been five days after we had argue and hane not been talking to each other from then. Haiz rather sad as i really miss him alots. Maybe he will not ahve a chance to know what i poat here but i really fall too deep in the realationship. Had been together for alomst 41/2 years and i reaaly love him and willing to be with him thru all the unhappiness and what so ever. For the past fews night got to cry tehn i can put myself to sleep. Just like last nitez, after my sis and mum was alseep i was crying non stop till i almost fall alseep and i was keep looking at my phone worrying he might call or message but he did not.

wake up at 7am to prepare myself for class at 9am. Went to took a shower and then head to school. At times, i hate to wait for ppl as they are the one that can be late and when you are just a bit late, message will pop on ur phone and said "see you in class". He was so late today when heama look at her phone and told me it was 905am. So i told her we wait a while more if dun have then we go off first. Then within the minutes he showed up. XXX.......he think he is the king so he can take things for garnted. At time please reflect urself in the mirror before u cursed ppl. Today lesson was so boring as the usual lecture was away, went for my break at 1010am and haed back class at 1040am then at that moment my emotion drop to the bottom as i found out that the earring my daddy bought me was missing. can't wait for time to go back then i can find the earring. the moment i reach home i ran straight to my bed to search and finally i found it...

Well i'm still waiting for his call to hear his voice.. going for dinner..................

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Sadness....

It had been two days since we last contact, well maybe we make use of this time to gives each other soem spaces to cool down and know are we really compatiable.

got no where to go after work on sat, so decided to went home straight. while on the bus, suddenly the reflect tigger my mind and i nearly broke down again. Well should i said this is life. It take time to cool down the wound maybe just let the sorrow bury with my tears. Went to MS with my sister to have dinner, so while we we travelling, i asked what we will be having? So she said let eat thai express.. Yummy my fav steamboat again.... but the soup standand had drop, nowadays is so craemy but yet spicy, hahah..... Did not eat rice as i was trying to cut down on carbo so just drink soem soup and my sis order tropical as desserts. OMG it was so sweets so sure will gain weight.. CARBO INCREASED....... Oh i met Wanpin at thai expres also, kinda funny while waiting i saw my phone got a misssed call and messae so it was Wanpin and she asked am i at MS, and i reply yes,why. Then out of the sudden, she shouted my name, MANDY...... loudy behind me. haha! She again saw me without my make up,OMG i can't meet ppl without my make up as i look like a ghost... haha

After that went to meet joy,charles,sp and mark at tampines safra. So we went to bedok for supper and ate an moo...mooo Ice cream(OMG...... CARBO INCREASED AGAIN)... As it was ice cream so i could finish it at a very fast speed and sp said mark also very fast. So amrk said let race, adn they both of us jsut slient off, out of the sudden i just raise the stick up as i ahve finish and mark said, " well as i'm getting old so my teeth couldn't take it anymore" hahah... LAstly it was joy who fetch us back while charles was sitting beside aeting his"CRUNCH CHOCOLATE"....
raech home at about 110am and went to bath and sat infront of teh tv to watch "DOU NU YAO BU YAO". Really like Hebe haircut in the show, ahahha.. show ended at about 0235am so was rather sleepy and went to bath straight. haha shoudl eb looking forward for more meet up with them, feel beimg left out most of teh time as dun really know what they are saying....( sorry guys and gals, got to stick with yours for the time being agina)....

Wow... amazing

A weedy sea dragon at the Georgia Aquarium has something to celebrate this Father's Day. One of the rare creatures is pregnant for only the third time ever at a U.S. aquarium, aquarium officials said. But don't look for the expectant mom _ dads carry the eggs in this family.

Sea dragons, sea horses and pipe fish are the only species where the male carries the eggs, Gladish said. Sea dragon pregnancies are rare because researchers don't know what gets them in the mood to mate. The aquarium recently changed the lighting and thinned out the plants in the sea dragons' tank to give them room to court each other. During mating, the female lays dozens of eggs and then transfers them to the male's tail.

Friday, June 13, 2008

www = What Went Wrongs???

Seriously got no idea what has gone wrong in our relationship? but i know i'm too hush to make such decision also! i can't force you to chose who you will be loving and spend the rest of ur life with, but i think at this moment i deserve to know about our status. Been together for almost 5 years it not an easy relationship, as it need two hand to clsp. Which says it needed two person to give in and take... i also know you know her longer then you know me but i really want to know or should i say i want you to stay away from her. Have never been confident in our relationship ebfore even you have shown me all the love but that not the way.

I'm just goint to turn 25 years old this years and my youth is limited.... All along i really committed in this realtionship and do not wish to end up or give up. It has been a long long time since i last broke down till so badly and i do not want you to know. Actually i think when i was been brought to this whole my simle should be with me till the last breathe. But since i'm young god has taken my smile away far from me. till now i have not found my simle back yet. i'm a super soft hearted person at time i can be super sad over my mood therfore i really got no where to hide but cry in my heart....

i dun know when i will get my smile back but i will be strong. Trying hard not to call you, hoping to give time to both parties. So my dear frens, dun be worry about me as i will be strong and i know if i need you all is just a phone call away. Jie, i know you will be reading this so please dun ask me anything as i will not say, just keep quiet and i will continue my update here....

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

MISS LAM....................

Evereytime when the sale start in my company, I had to end up being a teacher. WHY ?? To teach all this singaporean how to read english..... I m wondering how stupid they reli can be ... I should said, they never read .. only see with their eyes ... and their eyes can see numbers only and not the others. Some even try to act stupid in front of u ..... They actually know wat is going on but just want to try their luck .... Freaking nabei !!!!! Wat the hell ???? Let me ask u lah ... It already all in the simple english leh .. then wat so diffcult to understand leh ??? I dun know lah .... I m sick of repeating over and over again the same shit everyday ................. Fuck leh !!!

Selected item 50% min 2 pcs can be read as Storewide 50% min 2 pcs.
Baby tee at $ min 2 pcs can be read as everyting $10 min 2 pcs.Amex add 15% ...

Fuck, this is the most easy one but yet still want to ask wat other cards have discount ???? This is damn classic one .. comfirm come out from their freaking mouth everytime.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Early Bird

Haha....wow tody is the earlier day that i reach home as i went back straight and i took train. Gosh so many ppl in the train some more and when the train start to move off i alomst faint. Someone actually open the shoes and it damn smelly.....

haiz it a festival weekend and yet i'm back home so early, anyway there no where for me to slack anymore. Out of the sudden i feel like my frens horizon is getting smaller from the past. compare to last time after work i still have a bf to accompany but now is like he is busy with his stiffs and only meet me when he feel like or he is free. As for frens those frens who start to work in the adult society also met very seldom. At time dun wish to ask them out as they might have program with the bf or frens so better dun bother..

haiz time passes so fast, just got to know that one of my fren younger just got married. haha well wishes her all the best in the brand new charcter of her life and have baby soon. well i going to rest should be back soon....

Thursday, June 5, 2008

TOO MUCH

I m yet to do my project ....

Too many things on hands to do liao ..

I m so so tired that i doubt any shopping trip would cheer me up ..

I miss having my baby by my side to cuddle me up .....

I miss the time i could do anything i want ......

I miss having a good sleep

I miss my good friend ....................

I miss being myself ..................

Monday, June 2, 2008

WaiTING for YOU..............

金色的舞鞋 伴着音乐 Baby 你的眼睛是一弯深遂的湖水
忽明忽灰掩藏不可思议的美 让我晕眩像在悬崖边 谁知一睁眼就不见
waiting for you I'm waiting for you waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你Cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念 waiting for you
I'm waiting for you waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你 不断旋转 一直到黑发成了银线 waiting for you waiting for you 直到永远