HAppy ....... so happy

Haha... finally got to drive alone. And i finally manges to park the car by my own without my father advice... ahhahah...... so happy is the only words that describle my feeling now

I"M BACK

HAHA.... well finally manages to get some time to update my blog le! Think i have neglect it for alomst a week. Well as was busy with exams for study and a short trips back to kl with darling. haiz have a hard time handling with the exams as it was rather tough and it was hard to "copY". haha 'HArd to copy mean the answer are all given. HAHA do we still call it as a exam?

For my Kl trips, it was wonderful as i have not been shopping for a long time under a carefree mood. Well, i bought 3 polo tee and one of them is from darling, a padini pants,beauty product and a "tag" watch from darling. Haiz thou my bag would be light when i'm back but i never know it is still so heavy despite all the kiddy clothes i bring back to KL.

Finally my company started the pharse 2 of the "ess" sale. what was being asked most of the time is this! I think it very clear wat is written there .. Some idiots still got the cheek to ask me wat the discount like now ??? "Hello", It freaking clear that it written as "50% storewide" .. So wat the cheapest discount u are looking for ???? I reli dun know .. Wat our school have been teaching huh ?? Teach them shit izzit ?? Reli all the crazy ppl ................. Siao !!!!

Birthday celebration

Well finally manages to got time back to blog here to speak things out. Hahah been a rather busy work as too much things on hands to do. First is my company starting the end season sale, second is study as final assement around, third is my once a year big day is arriving. So let start update from Monday(070708)

Monday(070708)
was busy with work as company end season sale is coming, so got to arrange the cothes by percent catergory and size, very tired as it concern a lot of moving. Spend my whole afternoon to completed only the kid gal portion. After work head back home straight to rest as next day still got class.

Tuesday(080708)
Damn tired till i woke up late. my sis only got to wake me up 810am which my class is at 9am. Damn it spend almost $15 on cab fare as there are a lot of the idiot charges. Busy taking down tips as test is around the week. after that went for lunch with Mr D and Miss H. hahah after eating still got to head back to work as still got to contiune to move the baby section. So only manages to do the baby boy. As sale is on thursday but i only completed the kids gal and baby boy as tuesday. Worked extra almost two hours a day in my shift. damn lots of extra hours but it can't be claim as my level is what i have to give in. Ended work at about 7pm so went back home. Got to recevied Miss T call saying that wanna play mahjong and Miss J can come pick me up. So went ahead with them. Crazy as i still need to work tml but we ended the games only at 515am. went for a drink then head back home.

Wednesday (090708)
Happy birthday Miss S. Went to ICA building to get my passport done as i'm going back to kl on the next following week. After which then head back home to get my moving completed, as next day is the sale. VEry sleepy as i do not have enough rest but i still need to study for test next day. But i was too tired to study and was unprepared.

Thursday (100708)
Sucks.... as i was not prepared for my test and it was rather hard so took a long time to complted my paper. After which went for lunch then head back work. Was not that busy as it was only the first day of sale. Went out with Miss Y and Miss T and Mr M, went singing and at 12am i got a surprised birthday cake from them. Was happy and touch. thank you ppl.

Friday(110708)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, ahahah one year older again. 25 year of living. Even is big day i still have to go back work so sad. Well it was damn busy as ppl get to know about our sale. Thank you Miss C for the birthady cake. Hahah met up with sis for dinner at fish and co. after that went back hoem straight.

Saturady(120708)
finally met up with dear, went to coca for lunch buffet and shop around orchard. Haha very tired but i'm happy as i share and hear a lot from him after a week. Thank you dear dear for the bag costing him at $169. Really like the bag but at first it was expensive but i like so got no choice so i still ended up having it but it was again a birthday gift from dear. hahah going to bed soon as tml still got to fight war and will be back soon to update. stay tunes folks... ZZZzzzzZZZZZ

LOST AND I"M REALLY DEFEATED

Well firstly i do not what should i blog and how am i going to express in words. So many things have happen and i have no where to turns to or even head up. Being so truoble over realationship (being worries since the feeling start) which has brings us close up to 5years being together. Ever since i have this blog i feel more relaxed as i can said what i like and dun like. Have given all my best in the 5 years and to draw out is damn difficults. i think i need the courage and the determine to do it. 5 years youth and time have just gone nowhere and i have nuthing, really nuthing in my realtionship but yet uncountable hurt. i do not know how long more can i last and where will be be look further. Get to know that his god-sis(slut) is coming back end of the month. trying hard to bury my time in work or events with frens. i know i'm being rude here but this kinds of things can't be help. Yes you did told me ur choice but what about the actions. Really i hate to hear that you and the slut is in the room only the two of you. What damn kinds of relationship are u and her in? do you know not me but if ppl know that only two of u are in the room how would they thinks?

Second is my work, i being trouble as there a guy working just downstairs at the woman boutique spreading that " i'm his wife", "oh my wife, Mandy is waiting at home for me' and more natsy things! You see you would put in more all this things shouldn't have happen. As apart from guys i also get into a gal realtionship. I really dun wish but from that 'her', i get all the concern and care from. i do not wish to fall so deelpy but i'm proud as least i know i have have interest in guys only. So as for her i have told her that before and keep reapeated that we are immpossible.

Third is my family and sibling. have mention in the previous slots so do not wish to said anymore.

Lastly i'm just looking forwards for vacation that i can start to let go and start fresh again. As for realtionship i know i will not let go but if i still hang on i will be more miserable and i have to suffer in slients. As for family i thinks maybe walk one step and see how. last is the work and same sex relationship. Just hope that i will be able to leave this company asap and forget everythings.

* really big thank to 'Mr B", 'Mr k" and all my jie mei for the surport. Will let u all see the fresh me and i will stand up once again and i swear i will not fall again even if i fall, there should be no pain,hurt,tears but happiness.

WTF.... WHAT SO BIG DEAL?

WTF.... It is wrong to have a own room of mine after moving to the new house? So what if you pay for the expenses? STUPID IDIOT, listen you can ask to share the money but did you ask? The answer is NO so what the big deal. Having a room of mine is good as i can get dear to stay over and meeting time are more. unlike now only meet up twice in every fortnight.Not saying i will not get married, the more i will just be staying there for 2 to 3 years. Not in singapore also that often at time you are out of town so what wrong? At time you got to be more open to all this. The mad mum will kill me as i think she would like me since she give birth to me. At time when she saw me she try all ways to find fault with me. Do you know? you will not know until it get big! haiz so old still not open to all this, you are the eldest so at time you have to give in. just dun understand how come i landed here? At time i dislike my life as i do not have a good sibling. try to be nice to them but ended up quarreling and fight. At time got to give in but after giving in i always regret. People can have there sibling to care and loved but mine is only quarrel and fight. Since young our relationship is already spoil till now that we are all grown up and realationship will be better but i'm wrong as things are stil the same. I feel at time i just a maid at home being ask to do things and that. Since young i have learn to giv and take. Still remember there one time my sis fight with me over buying dinner at the near by market, so i refuse to go and we fight.. She thrown a cup and it actually hit my head and there was a scar for the rest of my life. There also once she bought me down to the playground and i fall from the monkey bar and got a scar under my chin. Looking back at all this make me feel that this house is unbearable. At time my frens treat me more better then my own sibling even the are older than me, but those are the feeling i longer between us. i love my sis and brother and my dad. At time i'm worry what happen if my dad left me one day? And when i always quarrel with my sis, i try to give in. and for my brother when he have problem and my sis refuse to help i will be the one to help out but end up I"M ALWAYS THE ONE BEING HURT AND THERE ISN"T ANY WAYS FOR ME TO TURN BACK.

WAT SHOULD I WRITE ???

Juz as i thought i might run out of topic to write .. I'm tired .. I can't believe it .. I'm tired because i shop too much.. Been trying to get a birthday present for my best friend.. Thought i m able to get it .. but it seem like they dun have it anymore liao ..

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Sian... Boring

Been a few days that i have not updated my blog. Well nuthing much to blog also, as usual work, study and sleep. Just hang over at shop and home. So boring nowadays when going for class as one the besti in the team is away for 2 weeks and missing her laugther. What worst is i will be alone on thursday lesson and there are tips given for final assignment.

Been spending a lots of time which a "lesbian", feel so troubled as like i being followed everywhere i go. The feeling is worst then having a boyfren or husband. Hardly had time for dear le as he is also busy with work. At time really miss him very much.

Finally got a chance to drove out as elton(my bro) is back home yesterday so i took his car key as i really wanna learn how to park teh car. It would be funny if i have driving licence and yet i dun know how to park my car. Will be sharing car with dear so better "jia you" and put in more effort in order to reach my goals.

At about 930pm went to shuping's house for mahjong session again, Well luck was rather good at last when the games end i manages to keep my chips tight. Got no choice if i have to "struck the round" games. They are "SO GOOD" as every round they will be making their cards big big. Ahaha anyway i feel lucky as i only lost $2.50 this round. Went back at about 2am so have a bath and watch tv until 245am then sleep, worrying can't wake up for lesson tml..