FINALLY

Well, i'm back again....... Haha hehe very happy today as finally after the third times attempt i FINALLY pass my TP.. Very happy been smiling and laughing all the way. HEHE i'm a qualified driver now..... YEAH yuppy horray... MADAZ 3 COMING wat colour black,blue,white or purple???

Searching For Time................

Well, i'm back alive..... so long that i have never been able to slack at home since the whole day. Having been seeing darling for almost a week, miss him deeply. Manages to ahve time to run thru most of my frens blogspot and discover things. at first i thou we have not been meeting that often as everyone starting buzzy with whole stuff but till just i realise that i'm been remembered. Sorry my kaki for not been able to meet up with joyce,charles,shuping,and more. Dun worry will try to look for u all more often..

It suck !!! I dun know wat wrong with myself lately .. I just feel so tired and mono in everything i do ... Somhow, it just so different from last time. I hate my work now.. i hate everything that around me .... Bascially, i hate myself now .... I dun know wat wrong with me ....

I always thought that i had lot of friends around me .. After wat happened, I m wondering .. Do i have friend in the first place ??? And i m just trying to recall back wat i do for the past few yrs ...I just realise that it the same ...

How do u managed the space between yr Bf and u ?? Is that a time frame that state when u guys need it or it should be there in the first place ?? When a relationship honeymoon period is over, there a lot of stuff u need to do .. in order to maintain the relationship going on. It need 2 hands to maintain and not just u alone to carry on. .. Apart by communication , watelse is there to do in order to maintain a relationship ???Been togther was it just 2 person or it contain lots of other issue ??? When u would let go or u would just try to manage it till the feeling is gone ?? I believe in forever althought it sound so stupid .. but it just not easy to maintain a relatonship. I might be happy but u might not !!! We just not the same anymore ..

ZODIAC

VIRGO -The PerfectionistDominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Ha rsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

SCORPIO -The Intense One Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.

LIBRA - The Harmonizer Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.

ARIES -The Daredevil Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (Easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

GEMINI - The Chatterbox Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, but is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally.

LEO - The Boss Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. D oing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.

CANCER - The Protector Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.

PISCES - The Dreamer Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists.

Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly y at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

TAURUS -The Enduring One Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.

SAGITTARIUS -The Happy-Go-Lucky One Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

Falling Sick Again

Well have been coughing lately, yet to recover then another soilder visited me again. Finally get to off after working straight for 8 days. And also manages to spare time out to meet darling up but it ended up been sick. Meet him at 12.30pm but end up i was late and only meet him at almost 1pm " sorry darling t o keep u waiting". Then we went in to istean to hunt for 'dead chicken' ( cheap stuffs), but there isn't much also. Around 130pm we decided to go for lunch as we both are hungry, so wwe headed to lucky plaza to eat at the hidden store selling prawn mee (delicious yummy). While eatin half way there is this 3 women can't make up there mind where they wanna sit ended up one at each coner. HAHAHA...........

Then after eat we walk to taka as i got a craving for strawberry ice cream after that day when i went dinner with my sis at marina square. So he decided to drink the oolong tea so he walk to cold storage, he damn lucky as that the only bottle left but for me i'm unlucky. As my strawberry ended very sour( no star for you).I'm damn pamper by him as i grumble that the strawberry is very sour so he try and agree with me, so he said he would that and i can buy some other brand but i did not as it will be he suffer with the sour and i'm eating the sweet sweet one. So i told he 'dun care sour or sweet he share together'. Then we started our hunting again and found a pair of nike pants at talking hall( damn cheap).

Then after he pay we starting walking upsairs and saw Cedric's wife and a while later half way thru our sweet sweet talk we saw cedric. So darling cahtted with him and i went to shop around then 10 mins later we walk up again. Then we walk to robinson to shop and darling bought a "cow MOOmooo" wallet( must take care of it). Then was quite tired so we decided to leave and head back aljunied to eat dinner. Ended up back home at 1015pm. was quite tired and i went bed quite early... Or..ORRR....

Woke up 1030am then i feel a pain at my left side near kidney. Then i start to grumble then went breakfast and work... The pain did not go off but a while come a while disappear. reach home at around 12am. The pain start to be unbearable so asked dad to accompany me to Tan Hock Seng. Consultant fee was so expensive($80)...WAIT WAIT AND WAIT for sooooo long then my turn, is a lady doctor so he asked me all funny question and asked me to bend here and there. then he close up the curtain and examined me. As the apin is unbearable so she given me a injection. After all the check up then got to go back home at around 3am. Got a day mc. Was very tired so the moments when back home straight went bed..

Was sleeping all the ways toady and dun feel like eating, but no choice got to eat then can take medicine. Medicine was so strong that sleep at 530pm got call to woke up by dad at 7pm. Then went to shower and eat dinner. Now then blog but the medicine taking affect soon as i feel my eyes are closing soon....... ahaha..... going to bed then will be back soon...

SHOULD I

Well, My feeling of changing job is back again . After the meeting that day, i m reli wondering m i in the correct company ... Things had reli change after 'someone' join in . I miss the old times when i actually felt happy even i got to do a lot of ot. Now, i m like so piss with the load of work and i actually feel that i m doing shit and waiting to be rot there ......

I m wondering anyone from my office actually read my blog ?? Even they do, i dun reli care ... Wat i said here is reli my 101% of feeling ... At least, i m real ..... I dun hide my unhappiness and i m always upfront with wat i dun like . Anyway, watever it is .... I just dun care much liao ....

I believe in hard working ... I m sure certain result can be seem .... I dun need anyone to praise or announce out loudly wat i have acheive at work and definitely not some sarcastic remarks. If yr outlet is incapable to acheive at wat i have done ... Jolly well keep your mouth shut !!!! By saying some stupids remarks make me despise u more ........

Up to this point, I dun even think u deserve any respect from me or even my colleagues. Wat u have done today make me think that u are so childish and prob make u look like a idiot in a way .. Just do wat u want and leave me ALONE !!!!!

Like wat my friend said, "Dun get angry with someone who are low educated." But i think i shouldn't be angry with ppl that are so called highly educated one... Sometime shit just go up to the brain .... WATEVER !!!!!!!!!!!

Dramatic

i didn't expect things can be turn out to be this bad during this time round meeting. dun even sure wat the actual meaning of protocol? but i knoe for sure that it is a damn serious things . it actually a very straight forward and harsh meeting on wed. I'm shocked from the last part of the meeting. but it kind of funny that now the management realise certain ppl are not worth the promotion and regret their decision.

I M JUST WONDERING WHY ???

Ppl dun just change. I admit that as our position that we do stuck at certain level that we couldn't progress anymore but we are all trying out best to break it. It just funny that certain things took them like 3 bloody years to realise and now start to make a drama out of it ..... Never mind, like wat ppl said ... God got eye to see one ... Karma is coming one by one !!

it's back

helo, i'm back today is friday (160508). Er.... a very bored and sad day. As darling went back to KL for two days so quite sad as will miss him and would be able to hear from him until when he is back on sunday nitez. Well i failed my tp again... what a bad day as i met the same office again and is the same mistake again. Haiz gonna wait again...

Today was a busy day at work as teh whole of wingtai retail brands started there 'GSS' sale today.... Kinda tired but at least time passsed really fast and draw my attention away. The shop was not that messy but just that there are soem high class "tai tai" simply dun understand english and the $$$$$..... HAHA bugis retail is giving away the enviornment bag as it is from capital land... so GREEN...

Going to be a long weekend this week so ganna rest well and should up date soon with more more news....

Sadness.... tear are fragile

Firstly, would like to welcome myself back to blogspot for updating my recent life here. i think have been almost an year plus i was away. At time, i feel i'm drifting away from those frens that have been always with me. Been a long time last meet up and feel kinda strange when we are together once again.

Today have been a "bad" day, tuesday as usual still need to attend lesson at SIRS and head back to shop to work. Kinda piss off by this "Yuan de bu ne na", he has a baby gal but he is looking for a baby boy clothes and he got no idea what he wants and looking for. Then next is this "rich tai-tai" that walk in with a LV bag and do not know how to read signage. Was busy unpacking all the new stock given by the office, as usual that my jobs. Lucky manages to finish off before i log off for work at 3pm. oh ya, BHG is having their DND and closing at 5pm.

Went straight to ubi for my driving lesson at 1625pm. The car "id" was totally new to me( as i was not taught by the car id before). What an unlucky evening, as my tp is jsut around this week so really got to brush up on my driving in order not to repeat the same mistake. At first, i find that this "ATITTUDE MAN" seems quite nice as he asked how come i did not make it for the first round tp? Then i reply and he said " oh okay, so we will start from the test slot". Was super duper worry as my previous lesson was on 25/04/08 and today was 13/05/08. Just when i was ready to move off the ' my nevious is back', so i qucikly restart and move off. Was refreshing my circuit station and honestly i do not seems to have much problem but today was totally sucks. No problem at first but once was at the slope i feel that he is finding faults with me. Have any instructor give a direction when you have not even move up and get all the stupid points? If no, thank god and if yes then we could be the too bad too sad ppl. From his face i could see the fire burning in his heart, he asked ' are you nevous or what' so i reply i not nevous but super duper confuse by ur instruction and he reply what there to confuse and i said my points. And he said very insrtuctor is different, yes i know as no one are alike as there are man and woman in this world. Yes i could be stupid but your BLOODY JOBS IS TO TEACHES AND NOT SHOW UR ATITIUDE FACE WITH THE STUPID SUNGLASS. At about 5pm, was out at the road and it was the bus lane operating hours then he remind me and he said " now is 509pm so the pass lane is opearting. You see where are all the problem from now? Half way thru wanted to stop the BLOODY LESSON but think about it there isn't much time left for me so i tahan it all the way till 6pm. Was back in the school and before ending he still wanted me to try the slope again and AGAIN SAME THINGS HAPPEN? HEY MAN LOOK, IF I DO NOT HAVE PROBLEM WITH MY PREVIOUS LESSON AND ITS ONLY TODAY THEN U BETTER WAKE UP! Things happen with a reason. After we change over teh seat, he went to the course and said " HEY MISS THIS IS THAIS WAY AND THAT WAY" then he hit the wheel hard enough to scare me off. The every moment i drop from the car my tears just roll down very quickly and i feel damn hurtz by all the BLOODY COMMENTS . Was duper duper sad, went for dinner and then head back home as i need my piggy-mates to vent my anger.

Well, was back with my first post so there will be more coming............... to be continues soon

bush.......bush......beat u, smack u........ bite u........