Sian... Boring

Been a few days that i have not updated my blog. Well nuthing much to blog also, as usual work, study and sleep. Just hang over at shop and home. So boring nowadays when going for class as one the besti in the team is away for 2 weeks and missing her laugther. What worst is i will be alone on thursday lesson and there are tips given for final assignment.

Been spending a lots of time which a "lesbian", feel so troubled as like i being followed everywhere i go. The feeling is worst then having a boyfren or husband. Hardly had time for dear le as he is also busy with work. At time really miss him very much.

Finally got a chance to drove out as elton(my bro) is back home yesterday so i took his car key as i really wanna learn how to park teh car. It would be funny if i have driving licence and yet i dun know how to park my car. Will be sharing car with dear so better "jia you" and put in more effort in order to reach my goals.

At about 930pm went to shuping's house for mahjong session again, Well luck was rather good at last when the games end i manages to keep my chips tight. Got no choice if i have to "struck the round" games. They are "SO GOOD" as every round they will be making their cards big big. Ahaha anyway i feel lucky as i only lost $2.50 this round. Went back at about 2am so have a bath and watch tv until 245am then sleep, worrying can't wake up for lesson tml..

VALUABLE WORDS.......

DON"T HURT ANYONE
It's only takes a few seconds to hurt people
you love, and it takes years to heal.

LIVE TODAY
There are two eternities that can really break
you down. Yesterday and tomorrow one is gone
and other doesn't exist..... So live today!

MARRIAGE
Do not marry a person that you know that you
can live with: only marry someone that you
cannot live without.

MONEY
$$$$$ can buy everything but not happiness!

TRUST
It takes years to build trust and a few seconds
to destry it.

VALUE
What is most valuable is not what you have in
my life but who you have in your life.

不公平.... Nice songs

走了那么远 发现你不在身边

独自走过了什么 自己都不了解

未来的蓝图应该有你 不该只剩叹息

只是偶尔泪流不停 坚强的理由

只是自己骗自己 你眼中的恐惧

说什么都多余 付出的一切值不值得

永远不会有答案 只有天知道我有多么爱你

一颗心属于一个人 在爱情里什么算公平

爱的深也伤的深 是不是罪灭了自己

一颗心属于我自己 爱情里找不到公平

而当你最后选择了逃避

我学会不公平

VERY TIRED but yet DRAMA...............

Well i'm back blogging again. Let me think what have i did over my last week and current week. Er met joy, charles, shuping and mark had a great times as we chat a lots under the moon light. haha then haed back home. Er rather busy with work and social and relationship life. Up to date i have not fully settle me relationship problem. Bad things happen on tuesday.
MORE DRAMA THAN TV !!!!
Halfway thru the lesson today, H got a call from home to inform that her mum fainted . She rush home after that. While i m in the office for meeting later, My Om came and asked me wat happened to H ?? I mainly told her wat i heard.THE TRUTH IS .............................The mum con her to get home. WHY ??? Cause her idiot Bf call her house and tell her mum wat going home between them .. How he abuse her at times and threathen to kill her. So it very drama mama think that the mum decided that she quit her job and send her oversea tomolo ...OK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I m not prepare for this kind of drama leh ... I thought i saw on tv onli leh !!! I m so confused now.. I only managed to talk to her sister over the phone and i dun know wat the second part of it. I told them to report to police and hopefully, the case would end there and then. This guy must be reli an idiot asshole leh !!! STUPID !!!!

Met shuping for mahjong session on tuesday night can not imagine as we actually start playing at 12am until 8am the next mornign.. Well not very good as i have lost $30 bucks but nvm no lost then win will not came hahah.... After playing well head back home to sleep as really very tired.. Wake up at about 530pm then ate my dinner and start to slack until now. Hai tml still need to go for class again and i'm falling sick boring..........should rest early again..

THAT IT

I m freaking mad !!! I dun understand why everytime there things or rumour happened at work , I m like the fucking one that caused or spread around . It even more mad that ppl around u are just getting involved when i myself dun know know wat the hell is going on. I m mad that some coward just run away when they are the one that caused the trouble . It even more mad that they dun even dare to confont u but go around and telling people abt it. It even freaking mad that this 'it' is supposed to be your in charge.I just find it very amusing in a way. They wanted us to be open minded and learn to do things in an "adult" way. Here, we are doing things in a adult way but people just behave like a kiddy. Wat angry is that they dun even practise wat they told u to do !!

Still missing him

Well have been on cold war for alomst a week today, feeling down at times as on one part i really miss him and on the other part i worry how he is doing. At times my tears still just drop down but lucky this fews days there a true fren just by my side cheering me up and lend me the listening ear. Have share a lots with that fren and do enjoy it. Hope things just go smooth for u and quite tired as today class got a test and was hertic at work so heading to sleep le.

DEEPLY HURT BY LOVE

Been five days after we had argue and hane not been talking to each other from then. Haiz rather sad as i really miss him alots. Maybe he will not ahve a chance to know what i poat here but i really fall too deep in the realationship. Had been together for alomst 41/2 years and i reaaly love him and willing to be with him thru all the unhappiness and what so ever. For the past fews night got to cry tehn i can put myself to sleep. Just like last nitez, after my sis and mum was alseep i was crying non stop till i almost fall alseep and i was keep looking at my phone worrying he might call or message but he did not.

wake up at 7am to prepare myself for class at 9am. Went to took a shower and then head to school. At times, i hate to wait for ppl as they are the one that can be late and when you are just a bit late, message will pop on ur phone and said "see you in class". He was so late today when heama look at her phone and told me it was 905am. So i told her we wait a while more if dun have then we go off first. Then within the minutes he showed up. XXX.......he think he is the king so he can take things for garnted. At time please reflect urself in the mirror before u cursed ppl. Today lesson was so boring as the usual lecture was away, went for my break at 1010am and haed back class at 1040am then at that moment my emotion drop to the bottom as i found out that the earring my daddy bought me was missing. can't wait for time to go back then i can find the earring. the moment i reach home i ran straight to my bed to search and finally i found it...

Well i'm still waiting for his call to hear his voice.. going for dinner..................